A good friend I loved died recently. He was such a beautiful, good person I’m saddened that he’s no longer in this world. Part of my coping mechanism in dealing with his death is throwing myself into my work. Talking about my clients’ fantasies takes my mind away from my reality.
While this is mostly therapeutic, there is an aspect to it that makes me pause and check that I won’t cry.
It happens at the beginning of the call. The client asks how I’ve been doing or what I’ve been up to. It’s not their fault; they’re just being polite. But it’s distressing nonetheless.
The real answers instantly pop into my mind. Grieving. Remembering. Wondering why death comes when it does. Pondering my future and the future of my loved ones still living.
But I can’t say the real answers. It’s not fair to the client. He’s calling to hear a fantasy, to get off, to seek companionship. So I swallow my truth and lie. “I’m fine. Oh, I’ve just been hanging out at home. I’m feeling pretty good.”
Their questions make me pause. My voice doesn’t sound authentic as I answer. But they believe me. Why wouldn’t they? The small talk starts shortly afterwards and I can lose myself for a time.
Once this starts I feel back in the groove. I jump into their world for a bit and the stress relief is tremendous. I feel more relaxed when the call is over. Funny how I can turn a piss swallowing panties clad fetishist into a therapy call for myself.
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“You’re more addictive than crack.”
-Newbie Client, on our second call
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Turns out that some right wing fanatics have some kinky skeletons in their closet. Who knew? Well, me for one. The more conservative callers I talk with tend to have the weirdest fantasies.
Neal Horsley (anti-abortion extremist) has admittedly had affairs with four legged creatures, according to his recent interview with Alan Colmes on the Propaganda Network, otherwise known as Fox news.
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A beauty from The Burka Project.
Anna and Barney say this about their project:
“The new freedom of woman by using the Burka as a means of showing all while hiding the essential.”
I am mesmerized by these photographs. Not only is the photography phenomenal, the subject matter is both breathtaking and thought provoking. I keep going back to these images, analyzing them over and over in my mind.
While exploring their site be sure to check out the Clash Of Cultures for some sexy burka and nun pics.
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| Today is the 35th anniversary of Kent State.
From Mike and Kendra’s Kent State site:
“On May 4, 1970 Ohio National Guardsmen open fire on unarmed Kent State student protesters, killing four and wounding nine. The students were protesting the invasion of Cambodia in Southeast Asia by United States troops as well as the invasion of their campus by the Guard. The campus was subsequently shut down and 20,000 students sent home. Within the next two weeks over 500 campuses around the country would shut down as millions of students took to the streets to protest the Kent State murders and the Cambodian Invasion. The war in Vietnam and Southeast Asia, which had raged for over ten years and had cost the lives of over two million Southeast Asians and over 50 thousand Americans, had come home.”
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Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male
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| Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you’re tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!
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| Many of my callers know I’m married. A lot of them are married themselves so this fact isn’t an issue. A handful are turned on by this even.
Annoying Laugh Man though is convinced we’re soulmates. He tells me he loves me and can feel that I love him. He apologizes to me because he’ll be breaking up my marriage soon. ALM has also convinced himself that my husband hates him and is on the verge of forbidding me to talk to him. My husband of course thinks this is hilarious.
I let ALM have his fantasy. His marriage is breaking up and I think this is the reason he fantasizes about breaking up mine.
For a time I was tempted to nickname him Homewrecker but Annoying Laugh Man is more appropriate. Why? ALM has the worse laugh I’ve ever heard. It just sends a chill down my back if I’m not steeled against it.
When I do calls with him I have to turn the volume down so his laugh won’t be as grating. If you turned the noise of fingernails on a blackboard into a laugh that would be his laugh. He’s been calling for awhile so I’ve grown used to it. But it still gives me a shiver if I’m caught off guard.
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