One of my in person clients is an older gentleman. (I’ll call him OG for this post.) I’ve been seeing him for about a year. He’s still active but he’s definitely feeling his age. Sometimes he has big bruises on his legs or hips from what I judge to be a fall though he never says.

We stick to strap on play for the most part. He sometimes asks for a spanking but even my lightest paddle is too hard. I use my hand and pretend I’m smacking hard. One time he stumbled, fell over and rolled into the hotel table hard. I had a sudden panic-what if he really hurts himself?! Thankfully he was fine.

During our last session he asked for something new. He wanted to sleep with me-not fucking but actual sleep. He was feeling winded and suggested we both lie down. As I stretched out on the bed he started turning off the hotel room lights, leaving only the bathroom light on.

He said I must be feeling tired to so we should both take a nap. I wasn’t feeling tired but followed his lead. When he laid down I started to wonder if he wanted to cuddle. That’s so intimate-was I on board for that? I didn’t think I was. My body must have been tense because OG said “Don’t worry, I’m not going to try anything.”

Then he stretched out on the bed himself. He laid on his back, keeping completely still. I did the same. Soon enough his breathing became slow and rhythmic.

This is the first time I’ve napped with a client. I found it uncomfortable. Obviously I wasn’t going to go to sleep. Sure I could take OG in a fight but sleeping would mean letting my guard down. But laying down on a soft bed, in a mostly dark room while hearing someone sleep next to you certainly sets a sleep vibe.

To stay awake I decided to count. Letting my mind wander was a bad idea-I could see myself falling asleep that way. I counted to 30 then would open my eyes. After it felt like ten or so minutes had gone by I’d look at the clock.

Time went by. OG napped while I counted. I didn’t know how long to let him nap for. I’d shift position but his breath would stay regular. Apparently he was more tired than I realized. We laid on the bed for the last 45 minutes of the session.

It was time for me to go so I got up and started packing. OG heard me moving around and slowly sat up. He asked if I felt refreshed and I cheerfully lied and told him yes. He pulled back the covers and laid back down. He tucked himself in and I was preparing to leave. “I’m just going to nap a bit more,” he said.

I told him to rest up and left. I wonder if nap time will happen again during our session. After I got over my fear of falling asleep fake napping was pretty easy.

Posted by Vixen in PSO Confessions