The call started off normal enough. We exchanged pleasantries. Then I asked where he was. “Baghdad” was the reply.
That made my chin drop. Whoa. Several things flew through my mind. He was a soldier in active duty in a war zone calling me to do phone sex. How to handle the call?!
If there was one thing Soldier Boy (SB) didn’t want to talk about it was the Iraq War. He was living it and was calling me for escape. I figured the best way to do the call was to pretend that Baghdad was just another town in the US.
I quickly moved onto his fantasy. The details aren’t particularly noteworthy. It was a typical call and the subject matter was easy.
What I remember most about the call was SB’s voice. It was so emotionless, so flat, so empty. I have never heard a more monotonous voice. I can’t begin to imagine the horrors this young man had gone through. But he had certainly gone through something. That almost dead voice was a voice of shell shock-I’m certain of it.
During the call I kept thinking this man needs someone to hold him. Someone who loves him and would hold him until life and happiness came back into his voice.
That someone wasn’t me. All I could be was a temporary distraction. I tried to give him as best a call as I could.
I’ve had callers pretend to be soldiers before. Some said they were “leaving for Iraq tomorrow” and wanted a freebie. One even pretended to be in Iraq but was so over the top it was obvious he was lying.
SB was different. I think seasoned PSOs get a sixth sense about clients. I could “feel” that he was telling the truth.
Did SB enjoy the call? I’m not sure. Maybe. I don’t know if he orgasmed during the call. There was certainly no moaning but I didn’t expect any. Without warning SB said, “I have to go, thanks,” in that emotionless voice of his. He hung up before I could reply.
I haven’t heard back from him. I’m not sure if I will.
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Posted by Vixen as PSO Confessions at 9:09 PM CST